Editor’s Note: There’s simply no escaping the historical and continued impact of drug use on creativity – just look at recent CNN coverage of Silicon Valley’s open encouragement of psychedelics as a problem-solving tool. “Drugs” aren’t one category, though; each chemical has different effects on health and consciousness and needs to be evaluated independently. We cannot advocate the use of any substance for everyone, regardless of its legal status. But we also cannot responsibly repress the fact that psychedelics in particular have been a part of art since we have lived in caves. Brian Pollett’s use of MXE (an unscheduled psychoactive chemical) is legal and a choice that we respect as part of our ongoing exploration of the mind.
For the past two years, I have made it a ritual to create an extensive series of daily art. In 2014, I created a 30-day project and in 2015 I managed to create a 20-day project. The idea is to create a piece from scratch every day in order to reflect and grasp where my skill level reside as an artist. Almost every day of this process, I learn something new.
This year I decided to take the project a step further and build a concept revolving around my experiences on a dissociative anesthetic known as Methoxetamine (MXE). What began as a creative practice evolved into an incredible journey to find my relative truth. Every day, creating every piece was a journey into unexplored reaches of my consciousness. What I found has made a deep impression on my everyday life.
While under the influence of MXE, I tend to feel as if my anatomy dissipates into liquid light, revealing a link or gateway leading to the next step of my journey. No single day was climactic; instead, each existed as a part of the whole, eventually leading to a source. I placed a decorative skull in each piece to illustrate this heavy psychedelic feeling.
As for what I have discovered, overcome, and how I have changed, there is too much to express. I will say, though, that after 20 days of creative psychonautics, I have never felt so mentally liberated, abundant, enriched, and overall reconnected with humanity.