This painting is not about koi. (Full painting at bottom of the post)

It’s about the perfection of this very moment. The harmony that underlies even the most unnerving frustration and overwhelming chaos of our day-to-day lives.

We know the storms and struggles inherent in relationship and friendship and family. We’re intensely familiar with the challenges in career and purpose. And we are often pushed and pulled, twisted and tangled and ensnared.

And some days, we forget who we really are.

Bryce Widom Water (detail 2)

When painting this piece, I was in full-contact intimacy with the stresses of marriage, and children, and my looming mortgage; painting deadlines, a pile-up of bills, and doubts about my value as an artist.

And yet – as happens every time I find the courage to straight-on face an empty canvas – I discovered a singular moment of spaciousness. A pinhole of light and breath in a dark, dark ocean.

As commitment to the moment deepened, the light and breath expanded.

My hands swam over the canvas, sketching in the forms of two koi in their underwater dance of round-and-round. My brush gathered oils of ocean blues and golden yellows, simmering oranges and creamy whites, and I dabbed and spread and blended the colors across the emerging universe before me.Bryce Widom Water (detail 3)

And I saw how these two koi were dancing the same dance I was, of yin and yang and push and pull, of sweat and tears and heartache.

And how, in this moment of maximum stress, there was a poignancy, a perfection, so easily missed in its subtlety; just beneath the raw tumult and rough carnage of the surface waves, I re-contacted the grace that gives birth to all forms.
Bryce Widom Water (detail 1)
My wild and occasionally clumsy ride with marriage and fatherhood, my nagging doubts with career and money and purpose, these apparent “problems” were seen and experienced as none other than the unfolding of Perfection itself, beautiful and mysterious (and often perplexing).
So these two koi, captured in this moment of paired circularity, were embodying the very nature of life itself, and in this realization, a deepening and perfect comprehension rippled through my being.

More space…

…Deeper breath.

Bryce Widom Water Alter feature

“Water”, featured at the Water Studio altar, Hanuman Festival 2014. Photo Credit: Tony F Photography.

And now, I’m wanting to share this experience. For artwork (like love, like anything) is at its best, when shared. So I am releasing this painting from my care, that it may swim its way into another world, to find its place in another home, and in other hearts.

For this painting is not about koi.

This is a painting about life.

With gratitude for the opportunity to serve yet more deeply,

Bryce.

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I am a self-taught chalk-pastel artist and oil painter, staking my home in the energetic cauldron that is Boulder, Colorado. My childhood unfolded largely in remote regions of coastal Alaska, where the immensity, power, and silence of Nature continually pushed and pulled on my limited self-sense. Drawing and painting afforded me a means of expressing my growing reverence for, and identification with, the sanctity of Nature. Inspiration for my work rises from the soil of my life experience. Engagement and depth of vision is cultivated through silence, meditation, qi gong, kung fu, filipino bladefighting, nature-time, entheogenesis, husbanding, fathering, authentic-relating, and free-drawing. Artistic vision and skill is increased by doing the work, daily.

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